Moving on….

Its been really long since I posted something. And the reason is that it is always hard for you to face up with yourself, have courage to look adversity in the face and shout out “i’m alive”. I have built up that courage.

It is difficult to stand up, when you have fallen on your last attempt to stand, no, you have been kicked to the ground on your last attempt to stand. It is difficult to sleep in the nights, its difficult to cope up with the loneliness and silence. But then, I decided, something must be done.

It is the weak who bow down, but I am not weak. I have to turn around. I have to find my feet..I must stand.

Sometimes it is amazing how one person, one moment can bring your whole life crashing around you. The future that was building inside your head smashed by the tsunami of tears triggered by a powerful earthquake that has rocked your life.

But you are a survivor, I keep telling myself. You can kick adversity away.

I always tell people, impossible is always possible. And this time I had to practise what I preach.

But have I succeeded? Have I been able to stand? Only time can tell. Though for now, I think its enough to say that I have buried the ghost of past.

To move on to the future…

Yes, the pain remains, the anger builds up at times, but I am trying to control my mind, my soul..I must not think of the past. I have to emerge as a stronger person.

And I tell my life, hey, you cannot win against my will. At the end of the day, it is me who shall win.

And yes, I am back. From now, I’ll write regularly, start some of the older topics(like breview)…..

As they say…”Allah ke bande hasde, jo bhi ho kal fir aayega“